Deep Inside Me

The wind rustling,
 Trees shaking,
The leaves dancing as if they were taken over,
My face,
Pressed up against the glass,
Waiting to jump outside,
 I didn't know why but I stood there,
 Waiting,
The memories come flushing back,
Haunting me,
Twisting my brain as if it were stabbing me,
Over and over,
The memories of death,
I was terrified,
Afraid, that it might happen all over again,
The blood, I just couldnt bear it,
 That's why even though I wanted to, I couldn't go,
With the dancing leaves,
 lush grass,
And speckles of fresh hay,
 Those memories will haunt me,
Even though I can't do the things I love,
 Because it had been ripped away from me once,
 And I'm not going to make the same mistakes again,
Those memories will live on as a future reference to me,
 Because the person I loved, Died for me, Deep Inside Me