The Way I've Always Loved You

I never really thought of why,
I never thought of how,
Of what,
Or even when,
All I know is that I am in darkness,
In an abyss of the unknown,
Like I have nothing left but my soul,
Like a dark flower cascading onto my mind,
Shadowing it from something pure evil.
I just can't take this.
I can't live another day like this.
I need some sort of help,
Some sort of freedom from this darkness,
From this knowledge over load.
I am always thinking,
What?
When?
How?
Where can I find my inner peace?
I don't know the anwsers to these questions but some day I will find them.
I will dig a hole so that way I can lose myself in this sadness,
This horrifying madness.
All I want to do is sleep,
To try and stay alive.

All I want to do is rest my eyes,
Smell the ocean breeze,
To be able to set my soul free from everything,
And let go.
All I want is you to love me,
Like the way that I've always loved you.