Why Walk Away?

Why do you walk away

When can you stay?

What are you waiting for?

Today is our chance to be ourselves

To be the best we can be.

Why do you walk away?

Your staring me in the eyes

With those deep blue eyes

And that gorgeous smile, 

Why are you walking away?

When are you going to stay permanently?

What are we waiting for?

What am I waiting for?

I gotta get up and push through my inner shell

Push through this stupidity. 

I tried to be who you want me to be

I am not done

I am not going to walk away

I am going to stand up and not wait any more, 

You are mine and mine forever.

Spirit Changing

I feel my life changing before my eyes,
Everything spinning so fast I can't breathe,
Like I've given up on myself and somebody new took over,
I picture that new person, as a strong, happy individual.
But when I look in the mirror,
All I see is me pointing a finger straight back at me,
Saying "Lets do this Sam.."
I see my lips move and a sound comes out of it too,
But I couldn't feel them.
I see my eyes dart back and forth
But my mind is blank.
Is this what the new me has in store?
I didn't know what was happening,
I did know that today I walked in here as my Old Self,
And today I am walking out as somebody new.

Madness

Each & everyday,

I am here at peace,

I am not knowing what to say,

As I walk forward, its a huge release.

A release of what?
Of the songs of sadness I sing?

Or of the paths that I made rough?

No, Its a release of things that weren't said,

At least somewhat.

But how should it come out?

Should it come out in a bang?

No, Lets make it come out more tough,

My mind is a mess,

Always thinking ahead,

With what I should have said,

What I should have done,

I guess the audience I tried to impress,

Walked away in the midnight sun.

All of this nonsense isn't making much sense and I'm at fault,

All of my thoughts come to a halt

My eyes open blindly to a nice light,

I try to grasp it with all of my might.

My Heartful Thoughts

My body trembling
my hands shaking
my heart leaping
I never felt this way before
my face down
singing in dismay
nothing can change the thoughts and feelings I have
your mind
and I'm yours
I love you

your icy, crisp blue eyes always get me
My heart races like the buzz of a bee
you helped me see clearly.
All I gotta say is that I'm in love with you.

I'm Not Backing Down

My backs against the ropes
I'm hands up ready to defend
Punches thrown at me
To my head, legs and thighs
I keep my defense up
I'm not backing down
I'm never going to take to chance to get knocked out
I'll never go down without a fight
I'm facing my opponents
My hands held high
My feet ready to move
You push me into the wall
I'm still not backing down
Even when I'm cornered
I'm keep up my defense and wait till you tire
I've been punched
Bitten and bruised
But my feet are still planted
I'm the one that takes the beating
Get back up and I'm still breathing

My backs against the ropes
My hands ready to defend myself
I'm not backing down
You cannot break my hope

I Have Changed

I am strong
I was weak
I only saw my end as bleak
I am open to my new self
I am crying tears of joy
I went mental for a bit
I am battling with everything I have
I have hopes and dreams again
I finally found myself again
I'm not lost in darkness
I've returned to the land of the living
I want to live myself in fulfillment
I have a purpose

I am strong
I'm not weak anymore
I clearly see the road ahead of me
I am ready

The Road Of My Life

Each and everyday thoughts came running through my head,
Like I am going to be forever alone in this bed,
But all of a sudden you came into my life,
Took away my strife,
And made my heart sink like lead.

I love it when you wrap your arms around me,
And when you kiss, you always make it special,
I am crazy in love with you,
You opened my eyes so I can see,
Everything that's right in front of me.

Now each and everyday the thoughts that comes running through my head,
Is you and me in our bed,
Till this very day you came into my life,
I have no more strife,
My heart feels like a heavy piece of lead.

Angel

Your an angel sent from Heaven,
I know that I haven't met you when I was seven,
But when you came into my life,
It was like there was no more strife,
The pain before you cut me like a knife,
But I know now that you mean the world to me,
Today, Tomorrow, and the next life,
You made me see,
Whats right in front of me,

Your an angel sent from above,
I gaze into your eyes,
Filled with lots of love,
Every part of me dies,
Because you make me go crazy
On the inside.