Spirit Changing

I feel my life changing before my eyes,
Everything spinning so fast I can't breathe,
Like I've given up on myself and somebody new took over,
I picture that new person, as a strong, happy individual.
But when I look in the mirror,
All I see is me pointing a finger straight back at me,
Saying "Lets do this Sam.."
I see my lips move and a sound comes out of it too,
But I couldn't feel them.
I see my eyes dart back and forth
But my mind is blank.
Is this what the new me has in store?
I didn't know what was happening,
I did know that today I walked in here as my Old Self,
And today I am walking out as somebody new.

Madness

Each & everyday,

I am here at peace,

I am not knowing what to say,

As I walk forward, its a huge release.

A release of what?
Of the songs of sadness I sing?

Or of the paths that I made rough?

No, Its a release of things that weren't said,

At least somewhat.

But how should it come out?

Should it come out in a bang?

No, Lets make it come out more tough,

My mind is a mess,

Always thinking ahead,

With what I should have said,

What I should have done,

I guess the audience I tried to impress,

Walked away in the midnight sun.

All of this nonsense isn't making much sense and I'm at fault,

All of my thoughts come to a halt

My eyes open blindly to a nice light,

I try to grasp it with all of my might.